why must it be this way?

i am all stressed up and i am a person, when there is something seriously going on, i will keep thinking about that issue and until i know what is happening, i will never be happy.
i used to be so happy, not long ago. everything seems to be so perfect when suddenly everything just came to me on shot and now i have no idea what todo or what to say. :(
i am so damm lost and i feel like just end everything and i just live alone man. would i feel much better less stress when i am alone. anyway not that i have never been alone.
i want my old self back. the happy and cheerful kind.
you and you and you know, when i am in school, i really felt that happiness with my friends. my these friends gave me the joy that i had never felt in my entire life. the kind where wow, we are really going ot be long lasting friends. whenever i am with them, i felt the happiness of our great friendship.
but when i am not with them, i will start to be unhappy and think of things that are not meant to be. i will start thinking of all sorts of things and i will start to worry and be stressed up. i do not have the joy within me and i dun even feel like smiling. when i am a person who always smiles. i also feel weird. when i see you and you yesterday, i dun feel happy at all. i feel like a stranger to you and you. suddenly i have no feelings and i do not know how to react to you all.
but i have a great friend who was there for me and listened to exactly everything i said and would not say that that is not his problem or what. and i will also listen to his as well. somehow we shared somethings in common and just so it happened that we are both not so happy ba. so cheered each other up, joke around. :D
i am still so lost, we are still losted, we are both lost and do not know what to do.

got stucked BIG TIME! :(

what the hell man!