time flies.

another week had already passed and time really flies.
another monday is coming and chinese new year is coming soon.

then it is another anniversary for ah gong. i miss him so much.
miss my ah gong, i miss his sneeze the most haha :D he always sneezed very loudly.
some how i still cannot forgive "these people".
the adults who made those stupid decisions which are wrong. and to those who do not listen to my mum.
yes i may be smiling at you, being polite to you, greet you, but i still cannot forgive your.
just because your are of a higher rank than my mum. somehow i just hate it.
but well, it had already passed. i cant say more. just let it go.

everytime of the year when new year is coming, i will think of ah gong. if only he could stay a little longer for the new year and then it would be so great. if only ah gong would be there to join the fun at kukup. if only all of you have thought of all these. if only at that time, dad owns a car, then everyone will push the responsibilities here and there.

i swear to GOD that i will take care of my parents. Even if i have no money, i will never put them in the old folks. so i must work hard now so that i can earn lots of money and in the future repay to my parents. sometimes i just feel so bad, and that anger just comes ranging to me.

and also thanks B♥ for always being there for me, and i am so glad that all those bad memories have been gone. and i would like to thank him for that. being there for me, accompanying me, listening to my sorrows, being happy and sad and pain together.

i had chest pain the day before.
B♥ says: are you okay?
i say: i am fine, don't worry.
B♥ says: really mah, you don't look okay.
i say: really really i am fine.
suddenly,
B♥ says: OUCH!
i say: what happened????
B♥ says: PAIN!
i say: what pain???!!!
B♥ says: when you are in pain, i feel your pain too.
i smiled. :)

i just love him. :)♥

how do i live without you? i want to know.