is it mean to be this way?

i was hoping everything to be fine today as it is definitely a special day.
little did i know that, the day ended this way.
what am i suppose to do in order to satisfy your needs?
how can i be able to make you NEVER sian and unhappy?
got for plastic surgery to make my face look prettier?
go for slimming sessions which cost a bomb to make me look slimmer?



you said: "其他的女孩子都可以穿得很美."

我该怎么办？

i just wish that when the time is right for me to change i will change naturally and on my own.
and i just did not want to buy anything is because i know you will want to help me pay and i do not want you to waste money. then i will never want to go shopping again.



i just wanted everything to be simple and nice..
but then everytime, i'm home sad and confused about myself.
think a lot. maybe i'm just not the one? not suitable?
i'm just not the kind who will care about my own appearance. i am happy with what i have.

i'm just being too paranoid.

i just wish that we were like before.
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